|Which way is up?|
One thing I'm learning on this year-long journey is the vital importance of "course corrections." While progress has been in the forward direction, not all days are "perfect," and that's a good thing for me to learn. I have a tendency - and I think I share this quality with many, many people - to underestimate how much time something will take and therefore, to plan too much for each day. Then when I don't manage to cross everything off my list, well . . . I have to fight the idea that I'm a lazy, backsliding failure.
Oh, how dark and dusty and cobwebby are our brains!
While May was a good month, it was also chock-full of Big Days. It began with the third anniversary of the decision made by me and FryDaddy to solemnize our relationship and agree publicly that we were in this for the Long Haul. May also contained the exam period for the spring semester, which means it also had the grading frenzy. There was graduation, a few solitary days at the beach (where I discovered a series of steampunk novels that I began tearing through and am trying hard to take the time to enjoy now that I'm back in the Everyday World), registration for summer classes, a fun-packed, but also wearying, weekend presenting on Joss Whedon at the Birmingham Alabama Phoenix Festival, and then the start of a super-abbreviated summer school session which will last all through June.
As you can see - too much going on there. And the Joss in June conference that FryDaddy and I have been working on for a year happens at the end of this month, along with the aforementioned summer school sessions, so June is likely to be busy, too. In May, I fell way behind on my "star" days (in fact, it's been three weeks since I even put a star on the calendar) and quick, processed food was an easy lure to get me through my routinely 12-hour-plus days.
All the more reason for me to take time out and off. I'm hoping this month to start with little things, like making time for a cup of tea after my last class is over for the day. (I like tea.) Not constantly eating lunch at my desk while looking at the Internet. More walks in the sunlight and saying "yes" to fun things with friends instead of regretfully saying, "No, I have a meeting at 7 tonight, but maybe in two weeks??" Trying out that backyard hammock and watching the garden grow.
We only have so much time on this Earth and I want to spend more of it with those I love rather than with those I grade. So it's time for a deep breath and a new look at things. I want to keep working on menu planning to reduce the amount of angst over "what's for dinner?" and "oh, no, I need three things from the store" (which, at least for me, always seems to turn into $35). I want to get back to eating food I can pronounce and getting in at least mild exercise every day - rushing from appointment to appointment doesn't count.
New month, new start!