It seems that there are any number of pithy phrases regarding stress. There's the one about the two-ended candle, the one about recompensing the piper, and so on. Well, it seems that I delayed payment as best I could, but that finally my bluff that "I never got that, so I shouldn't have to pay it; can't I at least have a few extra days; oh, that - that's in the mail" was called by The Powers That Be. I've been revealed as an inept juggler who tried a couple of balls too many.In short, I'm a stress-puppy just now. I've been one for the last week or so and probably will be for another week or so. I know some people thrive on pressure and I do tolerably well, but it's not something I actively yearn for. My friend Stacked Librarian has a theory that this is just delayed stress from the book-writing project bubbling up to the surface. I'm not sure, but I think that no one is indispensable and right now, I'd really like to take about three days off to test the theory. Alas, I teach and that's just not an option. I like teaching, so I don't want to not be there - substitutes never do things quite the way I want them done. (Did I mention my tendencies toward control-freakism that are also plaguing me just now?)
Sigh.
Oh, for a late-February snowstorm. As it is, I'd better dig out the karmic checkbook - that piper's starting to glare at me.
I think we all have the same feeling and it could be that your book writing stress is finally bubbling to the surface. I hate that I have been absent - but you know where I am if you need to just vent some frustration. I miss our Firefly episodes - we must resume them as soon as the Buffy class is over.
ReplyDeleteI think you simply controlled all of that stress for as long as you could and now that you have a breather from the book-WHAMO!
ReplyDeleteOr else someone has just poured some sort of crazy inducing chemical into the water table.
Thanks. I know it hasn't been pretty for any of us recently and I try to remember that everything is cyclical, but that doesn't make the last little bit any nicer to be in the middle of.
ReplyDeleteBut I have a feeling things are about to turn the corner.